Monday, September 21, 2009
Remembering what I already know
It seems that the more I learn about mindfulness, acceptance, the ego, etc. the harder it is for me to remember what I already know. Today I found myself experiencing a lot of anxiety about several things that have happened in my life seemingly all at the same time (when it rains it pours). I was only briefly immersed in my thoughts and worries before remembering that I am not my thoughts -- I am the one who observes my thoughts. So I stepped back and observed all of my worries nonjudgmentally. "See," I thought to myself. "There's no reason to be anxious. You can get rid of your anxiety." THEN I remembered that the whole purpose of mindfulness is to experience your feelings, not to push them away. (Oops). So I allowed myself to feel anxious. I guess I almost got ahead of myself -- I was so focused on moving beyond my ego that I forgot to simply be in the present moment.