A while back I wrote in one of my posts about whether or not I should say "I love you" to the special person in my life. At the time I decided I shouldn't because it was obvious to me that the primary reason I wanted to tell him I loved him was because I wanted him to love me too. I've continued to think about it -- whether I should say it or keep it to myself, whether my feelings really constitute love or if they're more indicative of attachment.
I believe that I'm becoming less attached to him. When we're together I spend more time noticing things about him and paying attention to what he says, what he does, and who he is as opposed to focusing on how he makes me feel. I'm making a real effort to see and know him as a person.
Despite this, I don't think I'll ever stop wanting him to love me. I don't think I can say I love you and not feel hurt if he doesn't say it back. I would love to believe I have it within me to be that selfless -- to love without expecting anything in return -- but I don't know if I can do it.
I don't know so I just keep my feelings to myself, at least for now...