I seem to go through alternating periods during which I think a lot and feel very creative followed by periods of time during which I do very little in the way of deep or creative thinking. It seems like I am most creative when I am dissatisfied with my life. I suppose that makes sense -- malcontendedness spurs me to change-focused action. This typically involves a great deal of thinking. First I have to identify the exact nature of the problem. Then I have to come up with satisfactory solutions. Once I've decided on a solution I have to come up with an action plan. So I guess it makes sense that I do a lot of below the surface pondering when I'm unhappy.
Then there's the rest of the time. It seems strange to me that I don't feel compelled to analyisis or introspection when I'm content. One would think that this is the time when I have the most energy to put towards that purpose. But it's also the time when I have the least motivation. I'm happy with the way things are and simply want to enjoy them.
Then there's stress, which seems to paralyze me like nothing else can. I think that's where I am now. That is why I'm blogging about thinking - I'm so stressed I really CAN'T think right now! But this too shall pass, as everything always does. Until then, I hope everyone will bear with me!