tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6508287140975351636.post3189838188425127867..comments2024-02-14T03:29:39.594-05:00Comments on This Is Me: Living without pleasurespldbchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05505641654468777964noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6508287140975351636.post-24908073293672916522016-10-09T23:43:45.378-04:002016-10-09T23:43:45.378-04:00ĐƠN VỊ SHIP HÀNG TỪ VIỆT NAM SANG HOA KỲ
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I go through...That sounds to me like pure hell....<br /><br />I go through bouts of depression but they are usually situational and I am lucky enough to feel everything...<br /><br />Cheers,<br />BObbyFijufichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00626543577510367007noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6508287140975351636.post-40052859159899933332012-10-15T13:31:18.972-04:002012-10-15T13:31:18.972-04:00You might find this interesting:
http://www.livesc...You might find this interesting:<br />http://www.livescience.com/23938-overactive-immune-system-depression.htmlWas Oncehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14997943977882019444noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6508287140975351636.post-83694646093417671532012-10-15T12:01:37.212-04:002012-10-15T12:01:37.212-04:00You can't possibly give people meaning in thei...You can't possibly give people meaning in their life. But also you can't "do" yourself into experiencing pleasure. Drugs only prolong the ennui. <br />It's more like enjoy whatever you are engaged in good or bad as they all provide some learning. Was Oncehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14997943977882019444noreply@blogger.com